When I was a kid I couldn’t wait to finally become a teenager and do all the stuff they did in those cool movies. But then I realised that these movies are far from the truth.
I thought I would never be one of those teenagers who hate their lives. Those who just wanna be dead and I said to myself that I never wanna cut. But then I became a teenager and all the things I thought they would never happen to me … became reality.When I was a kid I used to asked my parents what “depression” , “anxiety” , “self harm” were … they never told me. Now I know it and it’s alot worse than I ever expected it to be.
I thought that people actually were nice and caring. But then I entered High School.
I saw my friend cutting herself and trying to kill herself and I prayed to god that this would never happen to me because I saw how done she was. But then I lost myself.I saw the pain in her eyes. But one day I felt the pain. Now I know hpw she felt all the time.
I am that teenager I never wanted to be.
Welcome to my life
you see it is not easy
but I’m doing alright.
Welcome to my dream
it’s the only one who needs me
and stays right by my side.